JOVIAL NAM!

MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj
wow. you smeared me in your lj

27/11/2009 1:32:03 AM MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj
nice one


27/11/2009 4:07:16 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. what smeared
29/11/2009 2:08:05 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you.
okay. here it goes. sorry about the post thing. but what i really meant is that u were important in my life. and whatever i post i on my livejournal is about my life. be it sad or happy. whoever i've mentioned is definitely someone i cherish and something i want to remember for life. my post is basically a summary of my this year. and if u still find it that ur dignity is at stake or anything,


29/11/2009 2:08:14 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you.
i dont know what to say. but sorry.


29/11/2009 2:08:22 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you.
but i do cherish u. u were important


29/11/2009 2:08:50 PM MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj
now i'm not


29/11/2009 2:09:04 PM MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj
so you can talk all you want about me


29/11/2009 2:09:22 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you.
its just my last post about what happened this year.

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29/11/2009 2:09:51 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you.
and if it really offends u tat much. i can jolly well keep it as a private post.


29/11/2009 2:10:03 PM MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj
i dont care


29/11/2009 2:10:16 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. then
dont come telling me i smeared u or something


29/11/2009 2:10:19 PM Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you.
its so contradicting .if u dont care, u wont care. i'm just here to apologise and explain. dont want to pick up anything


29/11/2009 2:10:46 PM MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj
i'm just telling you, you smeared me. and incase you dont know.

29/11/2009 2:10:49 PM MJ. But I, oh I, I'm gonna fix this world up for you. Save resources, Sleep together mynameisnam.lj
i dont care

Dear JGGs,

time passed so fast that we're all in different schools now. ( i'm not in any ) But oh well, we're definitely still in strong contact :)) Things have shattered and things have mended and some are still the same. There's people who left, people who came and those who stayed all awhile. I just want to say how happy times have been, and how much memories we created during SC and other times. Counting down together since Year 2, and we're gonna do it this year again :))

PS, EVERY YEAR, THAT PERSON'S HOUSE TURNS UPSIDE DOWN.
chalet this year, and finally, ALL of us :))








So, this is what i'm gonna post today... MIA

For the past year after O levels, i've somehow learnt how to MIA from people. Devoted to work and nightlife.
After getting my results, i somehow feared to face some people that i'm not studying at all and i skipped one year of school.
I'd never deny that i never wanted to enter RP and never would. so i rather not school then to do so.
Not forgetting that i've been with Mj, but my life wasnt occupied by her. she didnt had time and love for me. so that doesnt count and i dont remember that she took up my time. Except for me wasting my own time, waiting for her, most of my time is at work, and nightlife. I didnt like the computer nor the television, i found it boring-staring at it blankly, not knowing what to do. clicking on various channels and finding shows that caught my attention, i guess i'd concluded myself as PLAYING WITH THE REMOTE CONTROL.

There was a period i was heading for nightlife. I went out after work, i always had to cab home and i'm always NOT HOME. i clubbed like 4 times in 7 days. That was totally crazy, but i do miss those days. it was absolutely fun, and i felt so free, so happy, and surrounded by happy friends. We drank, we slack, we club, we ton. The days where we all go work like some dead log and face all the customers, and trying to sleep when it comes to our break time. Slacking outside till it's time to go home and bathe and change then head straight to work... that was the days... Just like D & D. i waited with su and yati till first bus came, which was like 6 plus, we left Macdonald at Liang court. I went home and lie on the bed like my soul went to wondering in the woods and came back half an hour later, telling me to bathe and head out to work. PS, i think i worked full shift. god, i was going high on Coffee.

After awhile, this nightlife became quiet and i spent most of my time being a good date, fetching my date from school and spending as much time as i could, but she actually had a crush on another and another and another girl. ( without me knowing). There, being a dumb girl, working, sad, waiting for someone that doesnt have much love for me anymore. yeah, i bet i fell into depression and that was where i appeared with my secondary school friends again ( since me and jiali's birthday). I started talking back with all my friends and everything and i guess i realised that i neglected them for someone not worthed at all.SORRY MY LOVES.

the sad period actually took up one quater of my 2009 and coming to think about it, i think i was ABSOLUTELY DUMB, YES MY FRIENDS HHAHAHAHA. I ADMIT I WAS DUMB. i cried during work, i didn't feel like going to work. basically, i wake up every morning in fear, and i wait for the sms and mostly is reply from my date and ended up to no avail no matter how much i tried. There, i felt so empty, but she denies that she fell for someone else or anything, that she's just caught up by sch and training. oh well, i didn't believe it much, and i felt so lost until MG told me that i should understand that she's busy with sch, training and parents are *. So i totally realised i was over reacting and gave myself to her totally and lost myself in her world. THEN it ended up, i was right in the first place to believe my own senses. DEAR steads, please admit to somthing when ur stead found out already. It sucks when ur stead finds out him or herself. it could be the end of a relationship or a start of a hole dug in the heart. It's when things are starting to get stronger or gone forever...
Oh well, but i got to wake up after that and i'm perfectly fine like now :) besides needing some time to adapt to how much i dont trust my stead as much as before and stuff. There are days that i am reminded of *u, but it's okay, its like ages ago.
but i do have to thank u for screwing my O levels last year and breaking with me when my eng o levels were here again this year. hahahha. JERK ASS. ps, it's life, live it when u can. If ur dignity is so important, there's nothing to spread about if u're really a good person. i guess u cant say i cheated cause u've dump me already when i did what u can't forget. Take it as a last memory for u cause u broke my heart 34923492384902840923 4times.

PS, i have to thank her i guess. i did regret being with her when i realised she wasnt such a good date ( we dated close to 2 years ) and that when her competition was gone, she didnt really tried to fight for me anymore. instead, she went round looking for others unintentionally and love me for guilt. And then i left the one who love me the most in my life and i do love her alot too. i missed her and i can't deny that i wanted her back to my life ( but the way i hurted her, i never thought it would be true anymore ) Thanks to mj. i guess i spoke with her again. As soon as mj called me pathetic and loved me for pitying me, that was when i left and everything turned around. 1 week of chaos, of... hahahahha. SCREWING LIFE then then i'm with the happiest person i can be with! HAHAHAHAHAHHA. I LOVE U. AWWWWW and now me and my butt is so LOVING AS WELL. I LOVE U BUTT. i'm constantly in nyp, and i guess u girls and guys out there know why im here. Just like now, i'm waiting for lessons to end :)) My friends like her, i love her, people around me likes to see me with her, and yes, i miss her right now even though she's nearby.

Not forgetting to mention. Mj's disappearance had brought me back to my friends. Like Jade, Max, Ebel, sarah, Fah, JGG, I didn't had time to be with them cause whenever i'm free, they're schooling and when i'm working, they're free. But i like them aLOT :)) they make me happy, they are HAPPY PEOPLE TOO. i stopped talking to hongwei after awhile, and i'm back to being close with him :)) i missed U ASSHOLE . THE ONE WHO HIT MY LIPS AND IT BLED. U BANANA GUY, WANTING TO GO TO SCHOOL IN YELLOW COLOUR AND ACT LIKE A KOREAN. HAHAHAHAH.
And about JGG, we're spending x.mas. new year and just went to school together. All flooding facebook everyday about what we did and we're happy kids, vadalising the school. And sin cheong stepped on a glass and BLED! HAHHAHAHAHHA. oh ya. MENTIONING: glenda, yihan, jiali ran after the bus and forgot that sin cheong cannot run. POOR THING! hahahaha. can imagine trying to catch up.

and now, my babe, pen is on the airplane, coming back to singapore and WE CAN GO SHOPPING! BIMBOS FOR LIFE! HAHAHAHHA.
ps, i'm happy my dear su is in a open relation now. i'm happy that she's happy and i'm happy that he's a good guy. AND PLEASE MR.F, sayang my su, AND TAKE UR SPECS OFF AND START SHOWING OFF UR "PRETTY" FACE! Now, i want my butt to have a guy, and jiali, and OF COURSE, PEN, GET UR ISSUES DONE.

Dear Butt, I Love u and I miss u. We DONT MIA from each other. Just that we'rebusy and dont have time. But WE DO SMS and tell each other stuff. And im happy that we had time to CATCH UP with each other. i love u again, and i will sms u nonstop whenever i want to, SO BE PREPARED. anything, text me.

Dear JGG, REMEMBER PJs and XMAS PRESENTS! :D:D






To JGG: My latest news. if u understand, u will. if not, ask one another

I think i have this thing towards NS guys. Not a good thing, bad thing
I don't like being close with them, i dont like being chase by them or chatting with them
i don't mind being friends with them, but i mind if i have to keep replying smses and answering stupid questions
and i don't know there's such thing " u have signals that u are single". OMGOSH. what is that!??!?! is it a guy thing or just NS guy thing
Mainly, i don't fancy chinese NS guys, Yes, Singapore Chinese NS guys.
I don't like being asked to meet up and it's known that i am gay
i don't like to be asked out for a movie with him only
I don't like having to answer things like do u miss me
I don;t like to have to answer an idiot when i'm so mean already and saying i'm gay, i dont bother about u and i will MIA.
I don't like him thinking that he is superior that i will bias him more than my own JGG and BUTT and Gf. OMGOSH. SIAO GINA


We'd talk about it when we meet. OMG. ps, i might Mia awhile until near chalet.